Sometimes Being a Diabetic Just Straight Up SUCKS!

Okay, I realize that this probably doesn't look real good being the post right after a post about "encouraging yourself". But hey, it's the way I feel right now. And maybe by the end of this post I'll find something positive to say....but for right now, this moment DIABETES SUCKS!!!!

So, I was a good girl and went to swimming tonight.  I've been several times now, and each time seems to get a little easier. Mostly mentally, but physically as well. I still get a little stressed in the deep end for whatever reason, which I know makes little since but it is what it is. My method for coping on this front is to close my eyes and focus on breathing. So far it seems to be helping.

As always before any workout I checked my blood glucose (bg) before getting in the pool - (105-a little lower than what I would like, but normal), I had a decent meal about an hour before, and I felt confident that I could swim without much issue. I would just check in about 30-45 minutes. And that's what I did, and found out that my bg was 36!! Normal range is 70-110. Typically I begin to feel a little loopy, or edgy somewhere between 80-65, but for whatever reason I had no sign that I had dropped so low....by the way most people would be passed out, or seizing in the 30's.  I truly thank GOD that I have never had a reaction like that and pray that I don't. So I went and changed and ate my snack as I walked out to the car, as I not so patiently waited to be able to drive home.  Hmmmpff!!!

Clearly my body reacts differently to swimming than it does to running or cycling. I just need to learn the right combination of pre-workout fuel, and how long I can swim and stay alive! (BIG CHEESY SMILE!) Each time I have gone, I have made a minor adjustment. I just really thought this time I had done the right thing. The weird thing is...I felt great swimming. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....... well, back to the drawing board it is.

My first endocrinologist Dr. Roufagaren, who moved away (boo!) gave me this wise advice. You control the diabetes, don't let it control you. I'm trying, and I won't give up!!

~later